its easy to

dislike your self when you do badly. but this is a very immature and illogical way to live.

the more you keep trying, the more you will learn, the more you will fail. humans are capable of incredible forms of adaptation when routine becomes commonplace, and  behaviors toward ideas are examined closely. 

so you just gotta keep pushing through. 

on an unrelated note, bejesus i need to decongest my pages. they are way too tight. i think they need some space like star trek!